2011

没想到这么快就结束了我今年最后一次值班
想起今年初还兴致勃勃要进眼科
年尾却还留在妇产科
果然女人是善变的，双鱼座的我把优柔寡断发挥得

淋漓尽致

 好吧期待更美好的2012年

加油！ 

SHOES

a woman always devoid of a pair of shoes
these words are so true, even I have three pair of shoes for oncall
well the left one is almost a year since I wear it
plan to wear a new pair of hush puppies when i change to a less busy ward two weeks ago
however I never thought that they will send me back to labour room
I am definitely not going to wear my new shoes to a place with high chances of contamination with blood and liquor!! so instead I wear my favourite bowling shoes (kampung adidas) it is such a nice shoes non slippery with full cover and so comfortable..
whats more it just cost me rm8!
i am so loving it~~~~ though my friend will say it looks like labour's shoes, well is for labour room's use!

海枯石烂

OliviaOng 的歌声非常清脆，让我听出耳油！

別再　擔心我什么了　
別把我寵壞
只要　你平安回來
就夠浪漫
這幾天沒有你在
當然有些平淡孤單
但我感謝這孤單
讓我更加確定你是我缺少的那一半
完成我的那一半

好完美的句子。。。。

I think i love O&G

"...consider the most boring and uninteresting, or the worst possible, patient/day you could have in that field, and if that is still bearable and even perhaps a little enjoyable, that is a field you can love the rest of your life." -- Mentor

I think I love O&G...This is not the first time my heart telling me
even with the bad call, the smile of the mother and the child really make my day
when I look at the articles, I chose O&G's
I do hope O&G will be my love forever

我生病了

终于病倒了
在oncall时突然发烧，经痛和泻肚
硬着头皮，咬紧压根，把剖腹产子手术做完，竟然有八个！
很想大声喊：我不干了！！
但是半夜没有人可以救我，而他们也只有我可以依靠，
我可能只丢了份工，但是他们随时连命都没了
妇产科让人太沉重。。。。。。

太平

今天放工后，闲来无事到书店却找不到我要的书，结果就跑去买蛋糕
买完蛋糕，却也要买水果
突然看到有凉水   （真是悲哀-- precall depression induced shopping spree)
aunty 大力推荐, 竟然只需要60仙
太平果然是个好地方
哪里还找到60仙的凉水？

舍得

有舍才有得。。。。 多么简单的一句话，要放下才能得到更多

错误

人一生所可能犯的最大错误是，因为怕犯错而不敢尝试。

所以我即将用我最大的能力，勇往直前！

残酷的现实

接生， 期待一个生命的降临
当生命已经没有意义的话，换来的只是责备，推卸责任，
现实本来就是残酷，

欢迎来到真实世界。。。。。。

领悟

刚从清迈回来，听着周杰伦的稻香，才惊然发觉歌词有金句：
追不到的梦想，换个梦不就的了
为自己的人生鲜艳上色 功成名就不是目的
让自己快乐才叫作意义

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=B9Swj2K_w0o

Left cornual pregnancy

I have a referral yesterday from local clinic
patient is pregnant for 10weeks, complaining of severe abdominal pain today with no per vaginal bleeding
BP lowish, patient tachycardic
scan showed intrauterine gestational sac with fetal heart activity present but want to rule out ectopic
listening to this presentation, i start to grumble, already IUGS still want to rule out ectopic?
unwilling to accept the referral, I ask her to send patient to casualty
luckily for her, me and the patient
her blood pressure still lowish on arrival
abdomen was distended and scan showed uterus looks empty but with an extrauterine gestational sac however there is still decidual sign there...
without further delay i called up my specialist telling her that there is a ruptured ectopic pregnancy for laparotomy, she came and reassess, this is a cornual pregnancy and the surrounding myometrium allow the pregnancy to progress slightly longer than usual ectopic pregnancy
we went in for laparotomy, intraop blood loss 3.2 litre, and 2 litre intraperitoneum...
I wonder, if not for the periphery doctor who insist on admission, I might kill a patient... and even if i am in her position can I make the right diagnosis?
and what if i refuse to accept the referral?
so GOD is great............. wing wink..

DECISION MAKING

I am a decidophobia, yes I am..
I dont know what i want, I scare of making decision and I always hate being regret of making the wrong decision
Oh my, what a useless person I am..
Why cant life be a straight line and not cross road ?

WAR WITH BLOOD

if use a word to describe o&g, the only word i can think of is BLOOD. everyday in the department we are fighting with blood, because only through this battle it can affect the life of the mother and child, just like men in the war, women are fighting with blood everyday in O&G..

medical certificate

i just hate those keep asking for longer medical certificate....

火车

坐火车回家

最近太多巴士车祸事件，让人不敢恭维，所以决定搭火车回家， 我说的是那种旧款火车哦，并不是那种ETS 新款电动火车。
在旧旧的火车站，感觉上非常有人情味那种，只可惜正在装修着，不然黑字白板的地方招牌是那么的经典啊！
火车徐徐地驶着，望着窗外，风景是那么迷人，在格隆格隆的声音催眠下，我睡着了。。。。。。

女人

第一次遇见你， 你哭酷啼啼的跟我说，他在你怀着22周期孕的肚子上打了一拳，你说你是他婚姻的第三者，曾经为他堕过胎的你， 好不容易再怀孕的你说再也不想纠缠下去了，你说你要自力更生，你说你不要再见到他， 我把你安排进院，希望你可以好好的想以后的路。
三个星期后， 你又再进院， 这次你为了追他而撞车入院，你说为了孩子，你选择留下， 无奈的是，你是人家的第三者。。。
我只期望你别再为了他伤害自己，好吗？